I know this week I have been very negative about living with an illness. That‘s because it is a negative experience at times. It is incredibly stressful and tiring.
But I wanted to end this week on a high note rather than a low one.
As a couple Ben and I have had some incredible times when things are good they are insane.
We have a very strong and loving relationship, we bicker worse than siblings, we prank each other far too much and we play fight too often. It usually ends in one of us getting hurt. HAHA. The thing is we enjoy spending time together. Mostly.
It's strange because when Ben is well it's so easy to forget Crohns is a thing. We get complacent and start relaxing and enjoying it all a bit too much, that's when Crohns then comes back with a vengeance.
Going through the things we've had to deal with as a couple at such a young age, an important age. Has made us strong, mature and more determined to fight for what we want.
We are that the age where you're growing as a person and trying to figure out what you want in life, where you want to be, who you want to be, starting to move away from our parents and discover our own lives.
Every time we feel like we are getting somewhere we get knocked down, but we continue to rise above it and each time we do we come out stronger than last time.
We have managed to save for a mortgage on a little wage I have, and with continuous hospital visits. We just got to get accepted now lol.
Everything me and Ben have got in our own little lives we truly have fought for and worked hard to keep it.
It's not been easy. It will never be easy. But it is an incredible journey. We would not be this strong and determined if it wasn't for Crohns.
Since Ben has been out of hospital we have found a little routine of shopping, I write lists Ben doesn't follow them, we usually fight over who's pushing the trolly and we usually get funny looks when Im carrying all the heavy bags or when we have the healthiest looking trolly ever with no processed foods!
We've made a special effort to go for walks. We've walked Bolt, we've gone to the forest, we've gone to Woodmill, Vicky park anywhere with a woods we've been there lol. It's been great, cold, but fun to spend time with each other and usually only on our phones to take photos.
When you have bad times because of illness. You become more appreciative and grateful for the good times. Without the Crohns being bad we would have never found happiness as strong as we have it.
Living with an illness is a rollercoaster. Don't ever forget the good times when it gets bad. It's not all be bad. It will get better even if it does not feel like it.
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